No more chocolate for me!

I love chocolate. I have always loved chocolate.  I remember my mom telling me that when I was a few months old, I would grab candy bars from store counters and bite into them with the wrappers so that they would have to buy the chocolates for me! 😀 Every time I go to a restaurant/cafe and I am having dessert, it is always (no exceptions) a chocolate dessert. Coincidentally, the Marriott has an excellent chocolate cake/pastry called the Chocolate Marquise.  It is so rich, dense and full of chocolatey goodness! I literally feel like I am floating in heaven whenever I take a bite. I wonder when will I ever be able to make something that is as delicious….. Sigh….

Most of the desserts I make at home have some chocolate – chocolate chip cookies, nutella stuffed chocolate chip cookies, peppermint and chocolate chip cookies, double chocolate brownies, triple chocolate brownies and peanut butter and chocolate chip cookies. (As I type this out, I realize that I may have a slight obsession for chocolate chip cookies as well!!)

Did you know, in India it is common to give up some food item in order to appease a God hoping that your wish will come true? Now, while I don’t really believe in superstitions, I have this one wish… One wish I wish gets fulfilled. I can’t tell you what it is because if I do, it probably won’t come true (another superstition!) I really, really, really want it to come true. I imagine  if it does come true it will change my life forever! I don’t know if it is going to happen and if it is really going to change my life, but I am willing to go all out and try to make it come true.

To please the Gods (any and all Gods) I decided to give up chocolate in any and all forms. I guess what I have actually given up is cacao beans! It’s been tough considering my brother just got a bunch of chocolates (peanut butter snickers, Lindt chocolates, M&S chocolate covered biscuits – all my faves) and they are simply lying around the house. But its amazing how powerful our mind is when we really want to achieve something.

Here’s what I have learnt – if you wanna give something up (bread, sugar, coffee, tea, alcohol etc…) just give it up then and there. Don’t tell yourself you’ll stop from tomorrow. It never works! Day 1 was hard. I had gotten so used to eating a bite of a chocolate as soon as I got back from work. I almost succumbed to the temptation. But then I remembered the reason why I had decided to give it up and I managed to control myself. If you can get through the first 7 days of resisting temptation, it’s all good. It’s hard to go to a coffee shop, to go to a restaurant and sometimes even to open the fridge and not eat anything which has chocolate in it. Friends and family wonder what’s wrong with you and keep pushing you to take ‘just a small bite’. I think that is in fact really difficult to overcome – the social pressure. But after 2 weeks of sticking to your guns, they usually do leave you alone. The only problem I have now is I don’t know what to order in restaurants! I end up not eating any desserts (my dietitian is probably going to be very happy to hear that!).

What about baking without chocolate? It’s going to be a challenge. I may just bake chocolate stuff for friends and family and I hope I have the strength to overcome the temptation to try it ‘just to make sure it’s edible!’ but other than that I am looking at a lot of recipes that have Cinnamon in it. I think this weekend I will make a carrot cake with cream cheese frosting if I can help it or Cinnamon pull apart bread. I am already working on getting inspiration from the many food blogs I see online.

I leave you with this quote:

“The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own.  No apologies or excuses.  No one to lean on, rely on, or blame.  The gift is yours – it is an amazing journey – and you alone are responsible for the quality of it.  This is the day your life really begins.”  ~Bob Moawad

Till Sunday then!